I love me some social media. Probably a little too much. Between Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest, Instagram and blogs, I'd say a lot of my free time is spent online. I've caught up with old high school friends and made new ones, and I feel like I've made lots of great connections.
However, for the past 6 months, I feel people (mostly social media acquaintances, but a few friends too) pulling away from me. I've been UNFRIENDED on Facebook and Twitter. I feel like I'm being avoided or even worse-"tolerated". I'm like that girl in high school that walks into the cafeteria and her friends get up and leave when she goes to sit down next to them. You can feel the disconnect, but no one wants to talk about it.
When I ask these friends if I've done something, there's always an excuse. There's a glitch in Facebook or their Twitter account was deleted. Do I not deserve to get the truth? As much as I wish I didn't care and as tough as I want to be, it HURTS.
I feel stupid and desperate for even putting this out there. But here goes......
Friends or social media friends, if I've offended or upset you, I am sincerely SORRY. I guess that my often strong opinions regarding politics, guns or religion have put a bad taste in some people's mouth. I can step back and see that now. Maybe it's something totally different. Maybe I'm crazy and paranoid. I doubt it though. I've seen enough comments to put 2 and 2 together.
I'm not asking for sympathy. I'm not trying to be passive-aggressive or dramatic. Not at all. I'll work on whatever is displeasing or offensive. I'm far from perfect and I know that.
I'm opening up my heart and being vulnerable. I'm not placing blame on anyone. I know that I need to move on from the unhealthy relationships. I'm just asking for those that I care about (and that care about me) to show me some GRACE. That's all. It's really tough to see your faults through others' eyes...